Pampered, warm and safe
In this greenhouse.
Peeping through the glass walls,
What a temperstuous world outside.
Unable to stretch or grow any further,
I envy those spreading wings in the sky.
They soar, they drop.
They slide with the wind, they struggle in precipitation.
To fly on my own accord,
Or to stay indulged.
To step out, or not to step out.
Sole dancer on stage,
I presented every drop of my sweat to the audience.
Some looked, with a smirk.
Some scorned, and left.
Seated so comfortably,
Your appreciative eyes never left me.
The only one left,
Your attention grew.
Eyeing you, I danced.
For you and only you,
I danced on.
You stood up.
No, don’t go, please don’t go.
Eyes never leaving me,
Your steady steps brought proximity.
I wanted you to climb up to stage
And you did.
Your touch, arousing.
Your strong arm rounding my waist,
Instinct told me to trust and bend.
With no disappointment,
I fingertipped the floor with your solid grip.
You spinned me,
Flew with me.
I seized your neck
And highlight our dance
With my kiss.
Summery passion ceased as summer passed.
Fire frozen in midair.
Promises descended into the underground.
Swallowed by blocks and cubes, hopes shattered.
Thought to be doomed.
The golden sun did not believe in insolubility.
Subsequent to the longest winter came the warmest spring.
What I have is the worst
I would rather have none
Every night before I go to sleep
I make a wish
I wish tomorrow when I wake up
The monster would be gone forever
Every night I make this wish
Every single night
Still, frosty, hard
Locked in the zone
Bound in the time
Your heart takes a whole lot of effort
To pump consciouness
Back to your immoblised brain
The only thing working in you
Is your frozen heart
No one ever shows me how to fly
Or teaches me how
Confused, I seek help from outside
I ask, I read, I watch
I take off
Soaring, I look back down
To see my little brother’s gaze
And realise he now has a role model to look up to
Not far away
Umbrella over my head
Arms stretched out lest I fall
I can’t tell if you are visible or invisible
I can feel you but I can’t see you
Maybe I can, but I don’t want to
There, you exist, that I’m sure
With your shattered heart